Wish you were here
So, here I am. You’re like 350 km. away. The funny thing is I keep dreaming you’re in a way, way nearer spot (as sitting next to me). It feels grrrrrreat in the dreams, but in real life it’s like a bomb about to explode. I feel so bad when we don’t talk AND it’s the same way when we do. What’s it going to be then? hot or cold? silence or sweet talk?
Should I really try to get you out of my life/head/heart? For REAL? I can’t even bear to think about it, seriously. Can’t stand it. I’ve done this sort of thing before. Wasn’t my choice, I mean I didn’t want to but I did it.
I thought I could play cool, I really did thought I could be a friend. It never crossed my mind I’d go crazy for him haha.
This is beyond stupid, I realize it. I loose every sign of intelligence when I speak with him, it’s actually comical. That’s probably why he finds me funny.
The worst thing is I DON’T KNOW what to do, I’ve tried to ask you…but it sure would not do any good to ask: “hey, do you think I should stop talking with you? ‘cause it’s consuming me not to have you around”
